Hiyo wazzap!

Went for Ivan's house warming on Saturday..pretty cool..spent the whole night at the rooftop looking at the stars and thinking about stuff.

I think I'm such a loser and a useless fucktard..don't even understand what a girl wants. I'm everything a gal would hate in a guy. Yeap. This is so mindfucking..feel so damn fucked. Am I hurt? Hell yea! But give up? Hmm..thought long and hard..and no I won't give up..maybe coz I'm a fucked up stupid stubborn fucktard thats why.

Whenever I think about it..I just feel so low..an apt description would be a piece of shit falling in love with an angel. Yeap. Is there a future? 99% NO WAY IN HELL! But still..yea..so that's it.