Hello..

I'm back. Not dead. Survived my BSLC. Got posted to...MILITARY POLICE. Oh yea..my dream vocation. Reporting to my new camp on 23rd. Cool shit man...can go raids and stuff..



HAHA!

Ok..next up..from now on I'm gonna train..gym and ball. Kindof got the feeling of competitive balling again after 2 losing trips to CCKCC.

3 more weeks to go.

Section field camp over..shag like hell..after every mission same old arti sniper arti drill.

Anyway..Wanderer and Grand Slam is next up for this week. Lets hope I survive. Going to be assessed also. I'm hoping to get either really good grades or fucked up grades..ain't gonna settle for middle.

Bye.

I'm not dead.

Ok...POPed. Now I'm in SISPEC Echo Coy with Andy, Nixon and Marcus..how coincidental is that!

Life's good..or so I presume.

Final reflections of my BMT life. They say the army makes a man out of you but I beg to differ. It's the people outside that causes you to reflect while you're inside and that makes you grow(mature). Nevermind if you people don't get it.

Section Field Camp tomorrow. 4 more weeks till the end of BSLC.

Good bye.

Booking in at 2.15pm. Tomorrow is the start of field camp. 6d5n..will be booking out on Saturday night..Sunday book in and it's another mini field camp (Sit Test). I think I will be shag out to the max.

The previous week was cool. Hand grenade was shiok. Got to see the live explosion and it is definately a jaw-dropping experience. Quite happy with my throw coz according to the bay officer, my grenade hit the target and exploded on its feet.

Also had our cover and concealment test. Love it. Camo on and 5 mins to disappear into the vegetation. If can take photo sure damn zai.

Ok. That's all for now. Hope I don't get fucked bad in field camp. And I hope I survive.

Training to be soldiers
Fight for our land
Once in our life
2 years of our time

Have you ever wondered
why must we serve
Coz we love our land
And we want it to be free to be free

Looking all around us
People everywhere
While they're having fun
We are holding guns

Have you ever wondered
why must we serve
Coz we love our land
And we want it to be free to be free

Stand up
Be on your guard
Come on every soldier
Do your part
Do it for our nation
Do it for our Singapore

Hello. Gonna book in soon.

Short update. I never get marksman or whatsoever. Only needed to hit 1 more target..that's all I need to get marksman. Injured myself. Fell into the damn foxhole and my back is all messed up..and it still is. Other than that life ok in NS.

Field camp next week followed by sit test..can't really say I'm looking forward to it but at the same time once its all over it means the most shag period of BMT is over.

I think my book-out life is damn pathetic. Other people got loads of activities planned for their book out and I'm like the only guy without 1. And it kindof sucks when you book out there's like no one there to recieve you and you see all your buddies being welcomed back to 'mainland' by their loved ones. Empty is probably the best word to describe it.

Short book in for me this week. Going back in at 1415hrs. Next whole week is gonna be fun...IMT followed by range. My aim is to get Marksman and Best Shot.

Other than that there's nothing else worth mentioning.other than the oh-so-boring routine of getting fucked everyday by sergents and platoon sergents.

Good bye.

Few more hours and I'm off to Tekong. 3 days out was good. Oh and advance HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Ivy..hope you enjoy yourself. OK..bye bye.

Back from confinement. Life in army for this shot 2 weeks changed me in a certain sense. Had the worst birthday ever also. But I'll tide through this shit. The daily routines and trainings make me forget about you. And with each passing day I'm feeling better and better. I think I've finally seen through some stuff. And I think I really deserve better.



I gave you your dreams, 'cause you meant the world
So did I deserve to be left here hurt
You think I don't know you're out of control
I ended up finding all of this from my boys
Girl, you're stone cold, you say it ain't so,
You already know I'm not a testing material

I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, I'm takin' back my love
I've given you too much but I'm takin' back my love
I'm takin' back my love, my love, my love, my love
My love..




She shot the bullet that ended that life

Back from sub comm retreat. Quite a few people turned up but its ok. Still managed to have my fair share of fun. But I'm quite pissed with a certain ass. Don't really wanna talk about it but I think he is gonna be just 1 big burden to the committee. And I will never show him any respect.

Played dota with them till morning then its off to get my army stuffs. After that went to Tampines to return something..along the way had a misunderstanding but I'm glad its cleared. But I quite sad coz can't see and can't pass personally. So my mood went way down.

Bla bla bla and yes now I'm stoning. Enlistment at 8.30am Pasir Ris. Nuff said.







I hope you liked the small surprise. Although quite sad can't see you for one last time before going in but I guess it's ok..that's life. And those numbers behind..I mean it.

Damn damn tired. Went swimming today. After that head down to Beach road to buy slippers for NS. Followed by dinner at Bedok block 85. That pretty much sums up my day.









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Went for basketball session just now followed by a long chillin session at Mac. And I got a splitting headache. Fuck. Chilled with my sec school/bball friends. Talked about the army and stuff. I'm gonna make full use of my time inside. Make the most out of it man.

I seriously got this urge to speed. And drink. And smoke. Best is I die while doing that.





Deep and meaningless

Quite moody these few days. Smoking my life away. But its ok..my lungs are already black anyway. I wish I can go in Tekong now. Train like dog everyday so by night I will be too damn tired to think of anything and just koon.

I'm quite..no..damn confused over alot of shit now. But at the same time I realised quite alot of shit too. Ironic.

Oh..on a side note..fuck Chelsea won the Carling cup. Fuck.

I'm quite emo now coz Manchester United lost in the Champions League Final..tmd..and congrats to KH..you just lost $5 for betting on Man U..haha!

16 more days to enlistment.

Ok..Graduation was OK. But wasn't feeling right. But it's ok..shit happens. Next up Kat's birthday. Quite fun seeing Kat kenna zham by the flour, curry and stuff. Hope she had a great 21st.

Currently life sucks. Yeap. But oh well..like I said..shit happens but it just happens to occur more for me.

Somehow I think whatever I'm doin aint being appreciated but its ok..I guess its a 1-sided thing. And somehow I'm still hanging on to this hope. And it kindof sucks to think that I'm nothing more than an afterthought. But being the SB that I am, I still ain't givin up. But as the days go on..I'm beginning to lose my self-esteem as a guy.

Its graduation day tomorrow. I'm hoping to see you.

Pictures speak more than a thousand words.

Went for Ivan's house warming on Saturday..pretty cool..spent the whole night at the rooftop looking at the stars and thinking about stuff.

I think I'm such a loser and a useless fucktard..don't even understand what a girl wants. I'm everything a gal would hate in a guy. Yeap. This is so mindfucking..feel so damn fucked. Am I hurt? Hell yea! But give up? Hmm..thought long and hard..and no I won't give up..maybe coz I'm a fucked up stupid stubborn fucktard thats why.

Whenever I think about it..I just feel so low..an apt description would be a piece of shit falling in love with an angel. Yeap. Is there a future? 99% NO WAY IN HELL! But still..yea..so that's it.

This whole week is cool is guess. Went back to school for soccer and attend AC. Nothing special. Oh and goodluck for those running for main comm =]










I wished I had a mind-reading device to read your mind and understand you.

Happy mother's day!!

Took my mum out to Vivo to eat in some jap restaurant. Food quite ok. Spent $89 I guess on the food. Next up shopping for formal wear for my graduation ceremony.

OK this is paiseh shit..took what I wanted and went to try it on but I accidentally walked into the women changing room. All the gals lookin at me I though what's wrong..only when I was told then I chua sai-ed. Acted like a retard and walked out..after that pretend nothing happen faster walk off...damn bloody paiseh!!

But at least I got the stuff I wanted.




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Went to Marcus 21st birthday chalet yesterday..quite fun..alot of people. But somehow not in the right vibe..was worried about a sick pig. So nothing much happened except that Marcus got caked real baaaad. And to top it off..he didn't put up a fight...extremely rare..

Ok..today's the first day of work..and it's DAMN SLACK..shiok..$8 per hour just to shake leg..haha!!!







Girl you like my sugar, my sugar
You so sweet, so sweet
Like my candy, my candy
You so sweet, so sweet
Girl you my sugar, I call you candy

These few days never really do anything..but I finally settled my graduation stuff. What is left is the damn library fine.

I don't know why but I'm sort of looking forward to enlistment..that means can have a stable allowance..I know the pay is pathetic..but its twice of what my mum gives me so I'm not complaining =)

Found a really good place to chill near Bedok Reservoir..good view with plenty of stars overhead..and the breeze is awesome!






Always on Standby mode 24/7 for you

Counting down to enlistment. I'm gonna see a doc soon..I take my knee really cannot take the rigors of training..but hopefully no need down pes..I don't want to be a clerk for 2 years.

Life's pretty mundane..having serious confidence issues at the moment. But it's just another obstacle to overcome.







I guess I don't understand a lot of things. But that will not stop me from trying.

Hello.

The posts I make will be the last before I enter a new chapter in life. This posts will serve as recollections of days leading to my NS enlistment.

Went to Tampines today to celebrate Kexian's birthday. Hope it was a blast for him. Soon we will all be inside liao.

Come to think of it..its damn pathetic to spend your birthday in the army..but hey..I guess that's life for Singaporean men.









Darkness in the night,
I'll find that light for you
As long as I got eyes,
I'll have a sight for you

Looks like its been a while now...can see webs and dust..ha! Some updates.

Dinner and Dance is over. It was a blast. But I feel it was a waste of money coz we pay so much to just take photos and watch TPSU do stuff. The slides was total crap..it had only 3 slides worth of IIT and not to mention even spelled our events wrong. So yea..crap.

Next up is OL refresh. I guess it was OK except for some 'outbreaks'. I'm over it but I guess it shows major immaturity and discipline issues. You know what I am refering to.

WEEK 0!! It was a blast! My last camp in TP! In my opinion it was a huge success. Although we didn't get to win anything but I know we are the champions. Our freshies enjoyed themselves. Our OLs enjoyed themselves. We main comms enjoyed ourselves. So yes..SUCCESS!! The only sad thing is we failed to get gold in dragonboat.

I guess that's about all. Got my enlistment letter..11 June School 2 9.30am. So fast...havn't even enjoy fully and I'm gonna go in liao..sadded. I guess no one's gonna send me off also..HA!









You said you don't know what you want but you know what? I'm damn sure of what I want right now and nothing is gonna change this fact. I'm never gonna give up. You were hurt before and lost all confidence in men. I don't know what sort of guy am I but I'm sure as hell gonna try to be that perfect one. You believe time heals all wounds but you know what? I believe LOVE heals all wounds.

Back from OLTC.

It's gonna be a long update..so bear with lim beh..if buey song can fuck off.

First of all...pics!















Ok..the main thing now..

Camp in my opinion was great..in a sense that we got a feel for the OLs and their pattern and style etc. The main thing was that during parts of the camp I can see them smiling from ear to ear having fun. Sure there are some that are the black sheep but still it was great to see it all come together.

Won't really talk more about it. The main point of this post is reflections and thoughts..so here goes..

To the 'freshies' that never been an OL before:

From the moment you decided to take up that interview..you should know that the responsibilty entrusted upon you is great and expections are high. A camp itself will never be able to inculcate the values and responsibility you should have but I DO hope that you will be able to make that best out of it and strive on for greater success. You are the future of the school and club and I hope the fire will burn stronger than ever.

To the year 2s coming Year 3s:

You bunch of lao jiaos...by now you should know what is expected of you. I hope that you will lead by example and inspire others to greater heights. Having been in the club for 2 years you should know how important Week 0 is so expections are exceptionally high for you guys. You guys are our elites...our frontline..don't disappoint me! I really have great expections for you guys. Not only that, after year 3, you won't have any more chance to be part of OLTC..so I hope that you guys will really make the most out of this opportunity to shine brighter than the night sky.

To the 'Just-Grads':

It's been a short 3 years. Too short...this is our last try to leave our mark in the school. 1 last shot. Period. Let us all strive together and leave with a bang! Having poured heart and soul for 3 years(or shorter), the curtain is closing, now it's IT..For PRIDE, GLORY, and most of all, for LOVE of the club, school, and our FUTURE.

To my beloved programmers:
I will miss the meetings we had. I will miss the lunch sessions we had. I will miss the filtering process. I regret that I am not able to be there with you all whenever you all needed me..for that I have failed in my duties. That aside..throughout this amzing journey, I can feel the bond between us..strengthening with every argument, debate and agreements. Though I might not show it, I love you guys from the bottom of my heart for being my very best proggers. I savour every moment I spend with you guys..chasing flying chickens and smelling fucking smelly farts from Ryan. Throughout this you guys have matured and I hope that you will continue to shine brightly. Programmers are not zai..you are are sibeh kam pua ZAI! Bear that in mind. I will miss you all...I really do.

To the main comms:

I thank you so so so much for letting me be involve in this major event. Through it I have learnt not how to plan or what, but most importantly, to grow up and mature and of course learn about the complexities of human nature. Rest assured your faith will not be blind, for I will do what it takes to make this a successful Week 0. Let this be our swan song, to lead by example. Grudges will be forgotten, bygones be bygones..let us all work hard together for our 1 common goal. Let this main comm be the one that's gonna bring back glory days!

To everyone:

Now..this truely is the last chapter in my poly life. I want to leave with a mark..but I can't do it alone..I need all of your help. Help me..will you? For the past 3 years my loyalty has been dealt with with distrust and discord. Year 1 I was sacked from basketball despite training like a dog. Year 2, I faithfully do every shit for AC and what I got was not deserved. Year 3. IITSC. You guys embraced me with open arms despite me being a jackass. Together we shared tears and joy, through thick and thin. You guys are like my 2nd family. The club room is my 2nd house. Thank you!

So this is my final swan song before I leave. Will you all help me have the best memory in my last chapter?

I'm back!

OLTC is approaching..fast..

Hopefully It will be a huge success. I just to to get over it and move on to Week 0. Damn tired man..mentally? Dunno also..

I think sometimes I'm too friendly as a result I don't get the respect I deserve. But oh well..I've graduated anyway..the future is not with me anyway..

So did I ever regret being in the main comm for OLTC?

Yes and No.

No coz I can do something and overall learn a lot of stuff. Can also look at inter-human relations and stuff like that.

Yes coz..I'M NOT SAYIN IT! Muahahahha! It's gonna be a secret..

It kindof makes me wonder..Power..is it everything?

Mahjong session yesterday night at Ivan's place with Bird and Des.

Fucking won $25.

But don't expect me to treat you guys anything..just about broke even after I treated them to breakfast.

Fucking bored. Can some really hot gal date me out?

Damn sian over the empire shirt. Supplier no stock...now trying to find other alternatives.

Hopefully can find and complete before OLTC arrives man...fuck!

Ok..some stuff on my shopping list..

1. Formal wear (pants, blazer, skinny tie and a decent top) for Dinner and Dance, Graduation ceremony and Testimonial presentation

2. Black colour velcro knee guard for my fucked knee

3. Sleeping bag for OLTC and Week 0

4. Protein supplements (Gonna be a gym rat soon)

5. Board shorts (All my cheapo Queensway board shorts spoiled)

6. Aviator shades (Cheapo ones from Queensway again!)

Yeap..I guess that'a about it.

Now is the TO DO list..

1. Settle wulingmizi for OLTC

2. Settle all the OLTC stuff

3. Fucking do the empire shirt

4. Do the basketball jerseys

5. Eat kappo with Kappo Cheryl, Ahmad, Ivan and Kiat

6. Drink with the usual fuckers (Kappo Cheryl wanna drink also)

7. GYM GYM GYM

8. Basketball basketball basketball

Yea..so many stuff to do..chee bye sia..

Nic Soon's chalet was fun. Happy birthday dude!! Hope you enjoyed the company and food smashing!

Drank after that..controlled my drinking while many others K.O.ed.

Some shit happened and I just hope it gets cleared ASAP.

Other than that...OLTC 2009...may it be a success.

19 more days to OLTC 2009.

And I am absolutely looking forward to it.

My 2nd last camp in TP.

Leave with a bang baby!

Valentine's Day is over.

Nothing much..just that I spent my Valentine's day in Ivan's house playing mahjong.

Hello..damn free so I'm here again.

Today is IITSC DigiFrenship and Talentine day.

Quite fun. But I'm honestly quite emo.

So I guess this is the way the cookie crumbles eh? Don't know how things turned out this way but I guess it's the end. No more hide and seek. No more man. 做人 must 拿得起, 放得下..I'm leaving it the way as it is now. Anyway I'm gonna be gone soon. Imma just be a faded memory.

我不会是个好男人
也不会是个好情人
我想对你说我们只是擦肩而过
好的男人有那么多
反正我的日子也不多

VALENTINE'S DAY IS COMING!!!!

FUCK..AND I GOT NO DATE....AGAIN!!!!

CHEE BYE!!!!

Hello hello. I am back. SIP over..sibeh song! Report sent..Sibeh SONG! NO MORE SCHOOL..SIBEH SIBEH SONG!

Early graduation for me.

Yeap..nothing much happened..go back school everyday slack and chill.

Began my driving practical..1st lesson..damn fucking fun..I think my driving is sibeh zai.

Yeap..that's about it.

So fast 3 years ended liao..quite happy that I finally graduated from my chee bye course. But quite sad that I'll not be seeing my friends soon. Soon...I will peh inside the army..rotting away for 2 years..OH..and I got PES B for my NS medical checkup...

Dunno what else to write le. KTHXBYE

CNY is always a boring affair..but at least this year was a lil better. First night went to Ivan's house for steamboat and mahjong...played till morning..tired like fuck. Reach home in the morning go out again...

Evening go to Mich's house to bai nian. Fun shit..talked alot of cock.

Ok..I'm really damn happy now. My SIP left 1/2 day..Thursday off for med checkup and Friday 1/2 day leave coz of NAPFA..shiok!!!!!!!!!!!

Some pics of Ivan's birthday and the Sentosa outing..

Hello I'm not dead.

Last time I blogged was earlier this month. Ok..nothing much actually..just that..2 more working days till the end of SIP!!!!!!! SHIOK AR!!!!!!!

I'm back.

Lots of shit to blog.

23rd December...that was the longest day EVER. OT-ed till 11pm. Damn sian..then next day half day...also my mentor's last day. David is the coolest mentor so far..smoke with me..talk alot of cock and stuff..one cool dude..all the best in your future endeavours dude!

Christmas eve went to Mich's chalet..quite fun and stuff..but some shit happened..heng nothing happen..so next big thing is new year. Went countdown at some pub in Tampines..slack..drink...shiok...

New year over..back to work..past 3 days OT...tired like siao.

Thursday Friday Saturday Open House...but I kanina cannot go..no leave for attachment..LO don't want give LOA coz I think he's probably a lazy arse to type out the LOA anyway..lan lan can only go on Saturday...hopefully no OT whatsoever. Supposed to have 1 leave for OH..but kanina got medical checkup..so by default the leave already used up in that sense.

Ok..other than that attachment is ending. Damn I'm looking forward to it. A lot of stuff I need to attend to after SIP..I pray the school don't chu chee bye pattern..kanina now I totally got ORD mood liao.